Its very difficult to understand how the human's mind work... I knew that its hard to follow the mind... But, sometimes, I tried my best to be harmony with the others. Still, if it is harmony with one side, but on the other side, the balance is off! No matter how hard I tried..... I couldn't make the two sides to be balanced. Like this weekend, I tried my best to be at the service... And I knew I did well. The others seemed not satisfied at all... But I knew myself what I did, so its fine with me!!
OK. Not others but mine! My mind, I warned myself that not to judge others by their works, appearances, the ways they acted and they spoke... I can't control my mind... If someone did something wrong or said wrong or not very good appearances, it is like water comes out from the waterfall... the judgements came out continuously. Sometimes, I can control on time, but sometimes can't...
I am a human too. However, they treated me like no human at all... They just praised others in front of me! I am including in organizing the whole trip too... Are they there when they had meeting? Do they give any suggestions to make call to book? Do they ask whether I am free to do the whole thing? I felt very bad about that... But its ok I took it as just another gossip they were talking about me! They treated like us that we were an alein. I prayed a lot within these three days... I can forget what happened but i can't forget...
Because of those reasons, I don't wanna join anymore, although there is no problem that I can cope with everything... But they never try to understand us! No matter how hard we try to understand and respect them!
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